Monday, June 30, 2014

SHOCKINGLY…GOOD

This pic fits the blog entry but it also allows for a book plug.
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I could have blown it in the final text. As I neared Tim’s place for our second date, I typed, “See you shorty.” Luckily I caught the error and added an essential ‘l’ to amend things to “See you shortly.” Perhaps soon is a safer word.

And, yes, I did get lucky. Oh, not like that, you gutter thinker. I was simply fortunate to have a lovely seven-hour date. Still, got your mind in the gutter? I’ll tell you it ended with some kissing and me getting literally weak in the knees. That’s always the sign that I’m into something good. (Just so you know, there will be no more kissing and telling from me in the future should more dates occur. I’ve never been that kind of guy.)

Heck, there were good signs prior to the shorty-averted text. On the ferry ride over, I texted to see which of my suggestions from earlier in the week seemed appealing: farmers’ market with his dog joining us or a stroll on Granville Island. His response: “How about both?” Plus a smiley face.

Forget the TV show; this is the ultimate glee.

Texts, however, do not compare to face-to-face. There is no opportunity to edit before sending, no chance to pause for thirty seconds to come up with a witty reply. How could I keep this man interested through something so elusive as a second date?

As the date progressed from farmers’ market to long seawall walk to Granville Island to False Creek mini-ferry to lunch, I kept bracing for goodbye. That’s the old lack of confidence bubbling up. Surely, he’s done. Lost interest. Come to his senses. I would go from Happy to Bashful as I anticipated The End. And yet on we’d go. Still the doubt lingered. Maybe he’s feeling guilty that I keep missing the next ferry sailing. Canadians can be incredibly polite.

During our late lunch, things deepened. The conversation went from interesting information sharing to a discussion of values, past mistakes and disappointments along with new hopes. It was an intimate conversation that I sensed even the wait staff picked up on. Something was truly clicking. We were vulnerable and the attraction intensified. Something good could become something great.

There is a catch. Always seems to be. As we finally stood at my car, we talked of the next date. Tim said, “You’re off to Seattle next weekend, right?” Ah, yes. But that was only partially correct. I’d mentioned that I am taking the train there, but hadn’t mentioned that was only the first leg of my trip. From Seattle, I fly to L.A. and then to Ottawa. I am gone for the next six weeks. I’ve been itching to get away for months. When I’d booked my flights, there was nothing for me here. I wanted to spend every moment of my summer vacation somewhere else. It never dawned on me that Tim would become a possibility.

And so another factor of time gets added to the mix. I know the If it’s meant to be line and, really, six weeks is a mere blip in the long run (should there be a long run). Nonetheless, it is unfortunate. No one wants that kind of gap between early dates.

It is what it is.

For now, I have a second date to savor. That’s a glorious thing.   

6 comments:

Rick Modien said...

RG, I'm smiling ear to ear (what a cliche). This is really heartwarming and sounds so encouraging.

When I first met Chris, I had already booked a trip by myself to Disneyland. I LOVE the place (I REALLY do), but I didn't want to go. I swear I didn't. Because all I wanted to do was be with this wonderful young man I'd just met. The idea of him being in Vancouver and me in Anaheim made me crazy.

It was tough getting through the week I was gone (yes, only a week), but I thought about Chris constantly, and, as I recall, we talked on the phone nearly every day. I had to hear his voice. I HAD to.

I assume you and Tim can be in touch while you're gone (Chris and I don't have smart phones, so I don't know how they work–can you text from wherever you are without roaming charges (I know about those)?).

At any rate, the shame would be if you didn't thoroughly put yourself into your vacation and enjoying every minute of it. You know, living in the moment.

Did you and Tim say anything about getting together again once you return home? Did he say he'd remove his profile from the online dating site?

Sounds like you had a hell of a good Sunday. I'm so happy for you. Will we hear from you from time to time while you're on vacation?

And, by the way, have a wonderful vacation. Be safe.

Rural Gay said...

Hi Rick,
Naturally, I am grinning, too! The date happened on Saturday, but I waited until today to post what I'd written on the ferry ride home. I wanted to make sure the whole thing actually happened.

And it did! Golly...

A lot can happen in six weeks. Not sure we'll even be able to squeeze in a third date before I go. I have a history of finally finding a spark right before I head off on an extended vacation. The results upon my return have been mixed. Nonetheless, I find it encouraging that Tim had a twinkle in his eye shortly after I told him. Suddenly, he was thinking about a trip to Los Angeles. I doubt that will happen but it is a good sign that his mind went there...and he shared it!

Not sure how we'll communicate while I am gone. For me, it won't be enough but I will deal with it.

I do cherish my time in L.A. It reinvigorates me in countless ways. I still need this trip. Hopefully, Tim and I can pick up where we left off. If nothing else, I feel a new kind of confidence and a renewed sense of hope. I am so lucky.

Rick Modien said...

:)

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oskyldig said...

I'm glad that you had a good experience. Good things come to those who wait. :)

Rural Gay said...

Yes, oskyldig, that's what we tell ourselves. And sometimes...they really do!